You didn’t just lose weight.
The weight was incomparable.
Incomparable to the hair,
The bone density and the passion.
Incomparable to the smile on your face and the glimmer in your eyes.
Totally irrelevant, in comparison to the nails and the teeth; even the nutrients in your blood slowly wasted away until your heart could barely beat.
That little heart kept fighting, for you, though.
It struggled on beat by beat and so should you.
Why? Because there’s no adulation in anorexia.
There’s no congratulations or looks of admiration. There are just blank stares from the people who once knew you, looking at your broken shell.
There’s no fucking medal or badge of honour. It’s not impressive.
But what is impressive? Standing tall, healthy and proud, saying ‘yes, I have anorexia nervosa. But it doesn’t have me anymore’.
Remember what it took from you. (via untanglingamy)

Update?

Senior year is going well, and for the first time ever my appetite increased when school came around, it has always been the opposite. 

I got weighed at my new psychiatry appointment (I asked her to weigh me blindly) and I’m a healthy range, which means I do not need to return to the eating disorder clinic. I have no idea what my weight is … and that is just the way i like it. 

Also I will soon be presenting my senior project (justabiteatatime.tumblr.com) to my advisers, so I will keep you updated and please please please submit


I have so much more in store for me than starving to death



I have been bent and broken, but — I hope — into a better shape.
Charles Dickens, Great Expectations   (via ahappycollage)

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Small experiment - I want to see how many eating disorder recovery blogs there are. Reblog this if you are one, it should be interesting to see the size of this community!!


recoveryaffirmations:

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recoveryaffirmations:

Submitted anonymously

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OMG GUYS PLZ PLZ PLZ.

Harry Potter: Tell us about a scar on your body
Hermione Granger: What is your favorite book, how many times have you read it, and why do you love it?
Ron Weasley: Something you’re afraid of?
Luna Lovegood: One thing that makes you different from everyone else.
Fred Weasley: Can you do any magic tricks? What is the best one you can do? If you can’t do any, what’s the best one you’ve seen?
George Weasley: What is the best prank you’ve ever played on someone?
Neville Longbottom: Tell us an embarrassing story.
Narcissa Malfoy: Do you have a good relationship with your family? Who are you closest to?
Voldemort: If you were to create a Horcrux(s), what would it be and why?
Bellatrix Lestrange: Have you ever loved someone who could never love you back?
Ginny Weasley: Have you ever been in love with an unexpected person?
Hedwig: If you went to Hogwarts, what kind of pet would you bring? (ex: cat, owl, rat, frog)
Draco Malfoy: Is it better to be feared or to be loved?
Rubeus Hagrid: What is your favorite mystical creature?
Dolores Umbridge: Make a list of rules that your family (or whoever you choose) would have to follow if you made the rules.
Lucius Malfoy: What is your most prized possession?
Molly Weasley: What is the proudest moment of your life?
Dobby: Who are you most loyal to?
Sirius Black: Have you ever been accused of doing something you didn’t do?
Argus Filch: What’s the worst job you’ve ever had?
Dudley Dursley: How many presents do you usually receive on your birthday?
Peter Pettigrew: Are you a leader or a follower?
Cedric Diggory: Have you ever had a near death experience?
Albus Dumbledore: What is the greatest obstacle you have ever overcome in your life?
Minerva McGonagall: What is your favorite spell?
Severus Snape: Are you a trustworthy person?
Remus Lupin: If you transform into any one animal or creature, which one would it be?
Uncle Vernon: What is your favorite day of the week?
Mad Eye Moody: Who is the bravest person you know?
Arthur Weasley: What do you think is the best “muggle” invention?
Professor Sprout: What is your favourite class that is offered at Hogwarts?
Nymphadora Tonks: If you could change one thing about your appearance what would it be?
Moaning Myrtle: What is something that always makes you cry?
James Potter: Would you risk your life to save someone you truly love?
Lily Potter: What color eyes do you have?
Professor Trelawney: Have you ever dreamt something was going to happen and then it happened?
Mr. Ollivander: What would your wand look like?
Lavender Brown: Who is the last person who texted and have you ever had a crush on them?
Cho Chang: If you were on the Quidditch team, what position would you play?
Aunt Petunia: What is your favorite flower?

edadvice:

ofmiscellany:

this is everything. EVERYTHING. a girl in my IOP group clarified to another less disillusioned girl, “all your eating disorder wants is you dead.” it’s so true of the disease, regardless of the individual. it needs to be stated again and again until we’re blue in the face: there’s no way to be anorexic/bulimic and sustain life for as long as you could live. you are gradually killing yourself, no two ways about it. you’re not moving towards a life of being skinnier and finally happier with yourself—you’re killing yourself.

Preach ^

edadvice:

ofmiscellany:

this is everything. EVERYTHING. a girl in my IOP group clarified to another less disillusioned girl, “all your eating disorder wants is you dead.” it’s so true of the disease, regardless of the individual. it needs to be stated again and again until we’re blue in the face: there’s no way to be anorexic/bulimic and sustain life for as long as you could live. you are gradually killing yourself, no two ways about it. you’re not moving towards a life of being skinnier and finally happier with yourself—you’re killing yourself.

Preach ^

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People who eat well are happier anyway
Euripides, Medea (via maria-olympia)

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thenimbus:

heather-m00ch:

Shrek Barbie is my fashion icon

How in gods name is this a real thing


I HAD THIS DOLL, NO JOKE

thenimbus:

heather-m00ch:

Shrek Barbie is my fashion icon

How in gods name is this a real thing

I HAD THIS DOLL, NO JOKE

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the-girl-without-ed:

the-girl-without-ed:

this would be my senior drape

OH I FINALLY FOUND IT. reblogging for victoriasrecovery (:

This is beautiful 😍

the-girl-without-ed:

the-girl-without-ed:

this would be my senior drape

OH I FINALLY FOUND IT. reblogging for victoriasrecovery (:

This is beautiful 😍


the-girl-without-ed:

sweetcatastrophex:

THIS IS IMPORTANT

this ended much differently than I expected